Growing up with a sibling can be special and fun, Its the only other person in your life that is closest to you. She's been there for every special moment, she has the same parents and know most everything about you. My sister and I spent a lot of time together when we were growing up. I remember the day she was born, and how my Dad picked me up from my Grandparents to take me to see her. We stopped by the candy store in the mall before and got a baby bottle full of jelly Beans to give my mom when we got there. They made us put these yellow ugly scrubs on before we could go in and meet her. That day changed the rest of my life cause I finally had someone that I could tell everything to and we would alway be there for each other no matter what. Sometimes friends so the same thing but their not blood related and they had different parents and a different life growing up. Sisters share so much and its a bond that could never be broken.
The other day she was here to come and get her hair done, and as I am sitting here looking at her I started thinking. I know everything about this person and have spent more time with her more then any one in the whole, experience all the highs and lows in life, but I look at her as she is telling me stories of things she done recently and friends of hers that I dont know of. Then I start to think THIS person, is a stranger to me. I felt like I know nothing about her now. I knew her once when she was a little girl and till about 18 but now I ask myself who is this, what happened to the little girl I knew. It makes me sad that this is my best friend I have known all my little but shes not there anymore. I told my mom what I was thinking and she says well you two are growing up and starting to have lives of your own, and I know that but I see other sisters that maintain all those things and continue to make more memories. A friend of mine asked me that same day "Do you miss your sister?" and yeah, I do miss her. But do I miss the little girl I grew up with or do I felt left behind by her and miss getting to know the person she is becoming.
I guess I have to blame things on growing up and moving on in life. To me thats just an excuse. We both need to more into our relationship. She lives in a different city and works a lot. And when she has free time she spends it with her friends. I feel like if she has nothing to do then she will come around and its usually not for very long. Does she not like me or us? I really dont know what to think.
But I do miss my sister and I wish we had a closer relationship but time seems to be drifting us apart.
I love you Taren! Never forget I am always here!
